This is the month I turn 50, April 17th to be exact.
I love celebrating birthdays and giving and receiving gifts. I love surprises and family gatherings and all the love we share.
And as much as I love celebrating…I haven’t always been easy to celebrate.
Not long ago I had a conversation with one of my children, an honest and raw conversation where she shared with me her challenges in relating to me.
You see, for most of her growing up years, when it was time to celebrate a birthday or graduation or Mother’s/Father’s Day…I went into stress mode trying to make it perfect, often turning into a drill sergeant barking orders so everyone would help me get things done, or having expectations and unconsciously/subconsciously sending the message that things were not done well enough.
And while we all had excitement about having whatever celebration we were preparing for, my attitude and actions sucked the enjoyment out of the preparation and made it difficult for my family to enter into anticipation and joy when a party was on the calendar.
I was blind to this, unaware of how deeply my actions were affecting my family.
Until my beautiful child had the courage to call me into her bedroom for a chat and gave us an opportunity for truth to come forth and shine so I could make my new choice.
At first when she told me how difficult it was for her to want to help me get ready for parties anymore, how much inner conflict she had when it came time to celebrate me, her mom, and how difficult it was for her to desire to celebrate me because of how her experience had been that it didn’t seem like anything she or her siblings did was ever enough because all she saw me focus on was what wasn’t done or what didn’t get done “right” or what still needed to be made perfect…
At first… I geared up for my defense…as she spoke, I began to think of all the things to say to explain why I behaved the way I did and why I “needed” more support in order to have these parties for her and her siblings…how I was doing it for them, etc., etc., etc. I felt sad that she didn’t want to celebrate me and that the very thing I thought I had been good at (celebrating others) had, in fact, led to a less-than-love experience for her. I felt hopeless and devastated because I honestly had been working on so many changes and upgrades… and hearing her…well, I “felt like” a failure and was almost overwhelmed by my desire to protect and defend myself.
When she paused for me to speak, I said “I choose to share from my heart….” And then the words I had been preparing to say vanished from my mind and instead my heart spoke: “Baby, I am so proud of you for sharing. What you are doing here takes a lot of courage, and you are so courageous to choose to share your experience with me so honestly.”
Suddenly, the walls between us came crashing down. She cried. I cried. We embraced and I saw how my expectations and perfectionistic tendencies had burdened my sweet girl and squelched her joy. I saw my next step and I gave her permission to only do for me what was in her heart to do, to only celebrate me or others when she had it in her to do so, and that whatever she chose, my choice is to stay alive in my joy and to re-member my celebration and my happiness are inside jobs.
Instead of explaining and defending, I, thankfully, let my heart speak and we both got our miracle.
I discovered my brand new power to make my new choice and instead of communicating and defending “not enough”, I chose (and choose) to communicate love and acceptance and “enoughness”.
This year in 2021, I get to be brand new. I experience my family’s love in brand new ways and I let their own unique expression of their love and celebration be enough…because it is. Once I remembered that the way to having love is to let the love I have in, I discovered I always have more than enough love within and all around me.
My outcome in sharing this very intimate story with you is you find resonance in something I have shared and find your way to letting your heart speak and having your miracles with your family.
In the middle of my conversation with my child, I didn’t at the time realize I was in the middle of my miracle unfolding. There are so many things I could have said that would have shut it down, and I am so thankFULL my HEART was on deck because my heart always knows exactly what to say and how.
Sometimes the middle of our miracles seem messy and more like disasters.
And what I’ve found over and over again is when I make the call for miracles to come to me, I get to be open to how they unfold, and, in staying open to the how, I give God space to move in ways that go above and beyond all I could ask or imagine.
Tomorrow, I’ll have my 50th birthday and will make brand new choices to first and foremost celebrate me in my world and let my God’s celebration of me in. And in this place of celebration within me, and in remembering I have always been loved, accepted and celebrated by God in me, however my family chooses to celebrate and express their love on my birthday will only be amplified by the celebration I already have going on within.
I empower my world with my celebration of my life, and I ignite life-celebration in everyone I meet.
My God’s Love in me is enough. I AM already God-celebrated and I relax and have fun on my special day.
Happy birthday, me! Me love and celebrate me for no reason!
Because it’s my birthday weekend, I am offering a very special code for 50% off all of my courses from now through Monday, April 19th at 7 p.m CT. Many miracle reports are coming from those who have taken my courses and been a part of my Miracle Mindset 30 Day Transformation and/or Parenting Edition training, so if you are ready to have and recognize your miracles unfolding, this is the best pricing I will ever offer on this classes. Jump in!
Go to www.untethered.life/classes for more info and to register. Use code: HEATHERIS50 at check out to receive your special pricing.
I am your permanent victory in the light. I see your perfection. I see you in your miracles already attained!
All Love,
Heather
