"Your family isn't served well when you play small," He said to me today. "You serve them best when you are your best, fullest self, living life to your potential. It releases them to do the same."
This was a truth I received during an AFT session I was doing on myself, seeking clarity on an opportunity that I've been offered. I can't think of anything I'd love more, but I don't want it to compromise my primary mission to my family. So I chose two different intentions, read them to myself, and went with the one that had the most charge on it:
I am a competent mom.
I got a laundry list of reasons why that didn't feel true, mostly around examples of ways I was not competent in keeping house, in homeschooling, in mothering, in keeping them fed, in nurturing their spiritual growth. As I allowed myself to become aware of the emotions and feelings and times in the past where I felt the same way, I became present to the voice of the Lord.
He showed me the lens I had been viewing my past through, one that took responsibility for things that weren't mine. He led me to release those things to Him and took me through a process of bringing truth to those areas and letting go of beliefs and mindsets that were operating in opposition to who He is calling me to be.
When I play small, I'm not doing anybody any favors, least of all my family. What I need to be attune to is to only playing my part. My family is slighted when I begin to play someone else's part in an attempt to take up the slack I perceive to be present. I get to, instead, trust God with the gaps and step fully into the position He's created me for.
There's this Graham Cooke piece titled "Inheritance" (listen here) that I could have on repeat for days. This line jumped out at me tonight: "My love comes to set you free from yourself, how you see yourself, the smallness of your own thinking about yourself."
Come, Lord. Set me free from the smallness of my own thinking about myself. Give me your eyes to seem myself the way you do!
Yesterday I got confused about what day this is in the challenge, only to find out today really is Day 29 and tomorrow is Day 30….but what we became aware of on today's call with Dr. Perkus is that this 30-Day Miracle Challenge is just a door that opened has opened up a flow of momentum and creativity that isn't going to stop just because we've reached Day 30.
With that fire fanned into flame within me, I want to keep moving from glory to glory and experience fully the abundant life God has created me to live.
I'm repeating my affirmation "I am a burning bush and I move joyfully and excitedly towards my goal of receiving $100,000 monthly beginning November 30, 2017 for my YL and AFT expertise, pressed down, shaken together and running over. Signs and wonders follow me as God pours out His love all over me."
If you find yourself feeling stuck in life, perhaps today is your day to reach out to me for your own private session. It's time for you to stop playing small, to let go of the fear that keeps you from living out the greatness that God has placed within you. You can schedule your session right here, and if you have any questions, please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org. I'd love to help you step out of darkness and into His glorious light.