Day 3 I woke up in a funk. The night before I began to feel some deeper issues coming up, and by the time I did my affirmation the next morning (yesterday) I could hardly state it. I felt the weakness creeping back into my body as the negative voices began to rise to the surface from an area I did not expect
Prior to AFT, I would have made it through my day, but I would not have connected the dots…my emotional state would have seemed like a failure to move forward rather than a clue to a deeper issue at work in my life. I would have spent time coaching myself to get over it, to move past it, because I had a goal to work on and this funk wasn't helping anyone.
This time, however, I just stayed aware of the internal voice, how I was feeling and where it was in my body. My day was full of meetings and other activities, so it wasn't until later that evening that I was able to begin processing all that was stirring in my body.
My amazing husband asked me what was eating at me, and I began to pour out all of the things the negative voices and thoughts had been pummeling me with all day, allowing the emotions to rise to the surface as well, staying present with how they were moving throughout my body.
After thanking him for providing a listening ear, I took my oils and my journal and retreated to a quiet space so I could more easily process the pain and sadness that had risen to the surface. Thoughts like "as soon as you quit giving out, you'll be alone" and "no one really loves you, they just love what you do. once you stop doing that then what's there for them to love" or "you'll never measure up. you're not enough."
These thoughts that feel so real are just thoughts, perceptions, and beliefs that have been there a long time. This 30-Day practice gave them a chance to be heard, and for me to listen to them and then let them go.
I breathed into the oils and felt the emotions lighten and release some, going from a 2 to 3 a 7. I chose to finish the session later. I was spent after all of the emotional release, so I hit pause and decided to continue the next day.
Day 4 I woke much better, but still in a hesitant place. I went ahead and did my affirmation and power pose and felt strength returning to my body and to my statement. I knew I'd need to tweak it some more but felt it was sufficient for now.
I received some revelation during sessions with clients, and so when I had a break, I revisited the AFT process I had started the night before.
In my AFT practice, I always invite Jesus to reveal His truth to me as I release the limiting beliefs and thoughts that weigh me down. As I picked up where I had left off last night, I received clarity from Holy Spirit on the things I was believing that simply weren't true. This time as I handed Him these lies, I heard Him say "You're the real deal and I love you. That's why you can do this. The love of many will grow cold, but My love for you never will and is an infinite source of strength and wisdom for you as you walk the path I am opening up before you."
As I meditate on His words, my heart begins to swell with gratitude. I can do it because He loves me and gives me strength. At first I thought I'd need to change my goal, but now I understand that it's my "why" that has shifted…
"Because I am the real deal and Jesus loves me and gives me strength, I receive $100,000 for my AFT and YL expertise by November 30, 2017."
Yes and amen.
Life is a journey, and I love how God takes me from glory to glory, giving me the revelation of truth that I need in just that moment to move me at just the right time.
It's nearing bedtime now, so I'll be heading to do my nightly affirmations with my Believe oil to close out this day.
So much momentum is happening, and it's not too late for you to join in and watch your life transform as you let go of what is holding you back and lay hold of the truth that will propel you forward faster than you ever dreamed possible. Registration for the 30-Day Miracle ends Saturday, so go here to join today and watch the replay from Sunday.